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So I deleted the old bummer post to edit this one. Well, I edited it. Same thing.

Happy Halloween, everyone. Turns out I'm not even handing out candy tonight! Fantastic. .____.; We've had like 0 kids, and my parents want to do it. In a way I guess that's a blessing in disguise... right? Just a bummer Halloween ever since someone spoiled me to one amazing super duper awesome Halloween. >:|

I think tonight is gonna be the time to do some private work. Or super duper relaxation. I'll think of something. :)

Happy Halloween, once again, everyone! Especially you, Boo. <3

Such a peaceful, boring night.

Peaceful around this house, though it's extremely boring.

I really wish I could talk to yew. <3 Just felt like postin', I've got absolutely nothing to do! Going insane...

CARDINALS WIN

2011 BABY 2011 EW WIN WINEW I'M SO HAPPY AHDKJHF:DSJF:DSJAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
CARDINALS WIN THE WORLD SERIES
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Hey...

You no say "no reply." I told you, default is... unless you say I can reply, I no reply.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that... it really comforts me reading that.

I hope you have an amazing night, because your Cubby is literally screaming in his neighborhood over this game 7 of the world series! The neighbors thought I was in trouble and almost called the cops; they found out I was just super excited with my dad. :)

I love you. I'll tell you everything I want to respond with in person, or... if we talk before then, before then~

Hope you have an amazing Halloween, Goldfish. <3

Dear Goldfish,

I know you probably don't care...

BUT OH MY GOD I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS WORLD SERIES GAME
CARDINALS WINNNNNNNNNNNNN
CARDINALS
CARDINALSA
CARINDFKSJF:SD!

I'm LOLing really hard.

"AND I DROPPED MY PHONE, WOOHOO!" click.

<33 I love you too much. xD

so

I'm probably having one of the worst days I've had yet this month. fucking fantastic

I really don't know if I'm going to show up tomorrow, I really don't. If you can comment on this, tell me, do you really want me to come tomorrow? Would you understand if I didn't show up one more time?

Hrm...

So my phone never told me about my update until 20 minutes after you'd sent them.. (e-mail.)
Not sure if it was safe to reply. :<

So this cat loves me.

Apparently, there's this wild/stray cat in our neighborhood. Not a cat, a kitten. This kitten is so small, such a baby, and has fell in love with my friend Kyle and I.

So much so that, after leaving him outside for near 3 hours because we're not letting him in, we walk outside of my house at 10:30 at night and he's waiting on my porch for us...

I hope we can find this guy a home, or his owner.

Sorry, Boo

I know you've been waiting for this, but
I'm 99% sure that isn't the ring. But still.

WORLD SERIES.

WORLD.
FUCKING.
SERIES.

She... read...

...and commented on them all...

...

....Whoa...

Mini-hate-rant, most-i-love-you post. ;D

That title is five hundred percent corny.
So I didn't do nearly as much exercising as I wanted to today. I think I have to not run on tuesdays and thursdays, I'm never available to run on those days until late.
The route I usually take was majorly populated, because go figure there's some thing going on at that place every time after 5 or 6. So I couldn't run my usual route.
On top of that, I actually ran a lot instead of jogging, to see just how much I could manage before I felt like dying. Maybe dying is the wrong word, but I think everyone here gets the idea. I still managed to do a mile, so at least I did a mile.  Now that I'm done kinda mini ranting...

I did promise a certain little post to muh Goldfish, so from here on during this post it's probably going to be compiled of mush, love, mush, cuddles, snow mush (oh god i hate that mush with a passion) and... you get the idea.

You and I may only get to talk so long every week. We may only get to see each other under certain conditions that really aren't amazing conditions, unfavorable if you ask me. The stuff we deal with just to stay together is outrageous, and the stress and pressure you deal with from this whole relationship (Whether it be from me or other sources.) is monumental. I don't know how I could ever deal with all that, I'm just not that kind of person. But I do know that you're the strongest woman I've ever known.

I have absolutely no regrets in this relationship, and I truthfully wish nothing would change for you and I. What we deal with is ridiculous and bullshit, there isn't anyway around the restrictions. But it makes me loving all the more stronger, you're like a forbidden princess. I love you, Babe, and I'm sorry for all the things I've said today that may have irked you a bit. I really am. Truly, I am. I know I say it all too much and because of that I can't really express just how sorry I am. You haven't had the best week ever. Well, okay, maybe you have, but that just means i have to raise the bar and give you an even better week/weekend sooner or later, whether a certain party likes it or not.

We're not distancing, we're growing closer. I admit that we aren't nearly as close as we use to be, but that's publicly showing it. We really have done nothing but get closer. Emotionally, intellectually... we've been more in tone in every aspect, we know exactly what to say and when to say it (For the most part...), we've been understanding and more helpful than ever before. An "I love you" has never gotten old in this relationship, one of those phrases could travel eternities between you and I. Our love knows no limit, like the stars in the sky. Somewhere out there, I know there's a star that represents our love. One day I'll find that star [hint: corny present incoming eventually. ;)]

I'm so super glad you had an amazing time this weekend, I just truthfully wish I could somehow be more involved in it all. That's all. That's another part of my clinginess. I just want to... well, be with you. There isn't a lack of anything in the relationship, it's just my will to grow closer. Sorta like... getting engaged, or moving in together. This makes absolutely no sense, so I'm just going to shut up now.

And before I bore the fuck out of you and give you too much to read, I think I'm going to sorta conclude this message, mom. (HAHAHAHA C WUT I DID THAR, MOM?) no idea where I was going with that..
You're the reason I do all the good things I do in my life. You're the reason I keep living day to day. I'm your reason you manage to actually live, and I'm also your own personal drug(twilite]. I'm that cocky and egotistical, lol.

I hope you have an amazing tuesday night and wednesday, you know that I'll be thinking of you near every minute on the minute, just because I love you that much. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

and by the way, I know near everything I say sounds repetitive. That's something you need to forgive me for, I guess. I just... when you're sitting and you're completely hujjlegizzle'd (what) and don't know what to say, but you know you want to convey your care, trust, emotions, thoughts with someone... convey everything you've ever felt and known to someone? You know... love.
It's hard. Besides, you bring out the best in me in person. ;) I feel more pressured that way. (Good thing! not bad! No tease!)

She said she'll read! :D

SHE PROMISED. :X

...clingy.

So, nothing uber exciting, really. Yesterday I never mades an update, I simply got home, ate, went to pick up my friend... and nerded out more... for a long time. :\ Really. That's all I did yesterday. And today, I went and saw someone special, my Pineapple. <3 I hope she loves that nick name... Bah.

Besides all that, I'm going to go running after I a phone call coming up, and then pretty much relax the rest of the night. No homework for the win! ;D I may post something else, too. Hm. Maybe later tonight or after the run...

It's technically a post for Sunday...

But it's super duper late.
I have so many things I want to say, but it's super duper kinda late.
In a quick, general summarization...

I didz all my homework without raging!
I managed to go out and buy a new router, fantastic. :| $90 wasted, but it needed to be done. IT wasn't even my fault that we had to get a new router, but it got pinned on me.
I didn't work out, but I found out... I've already lost a considerable amount of weight. Maybe I'll talk about it later? idk.

And other than all that, I basically just nerded out with muh friends.
Tomorrow's Monday, happy yet sad at the same time.

I'll give a better post tomorrow as soon as I get home from school!

So it's... day eternity.

Countdown infinity, I'd say.
It's Saturday night, and I can only imagine the kind of fun my little sparkle is up to. I can only imagine the kind of fun she's having with her friends, geez. I could sit here and talk about how much I miss her and cannot wait to see her in the near future, but I'm sure anyone (especially Lulu herself...) knows just how much I miss the woman who has such a angelic hold on my heart.

It's another night, so it's time for another post of the blog. I wonder if she'll even read all of this... One can only hope. I'm doing this for her after all!

So today kinda was... boring, short, sucky. Sorta. I've got a lot to type, though it's really all related on the same subject nearly.

I woke up having hot flashes, sweating out of almost every pore on my body. I had to go to something at noon, I came back at about noon thirty and did almost nothing. Well, I did my math homework, at least I did two thirds of it, I've got a bit more to do and some political science homework. Still dreading going into school on Monday :l ugh. After raging at my homework, I needed some relaxation and to enjoy myself. Clearly that would mean go running/jogging, right? I'm so fucking happy, because not only did I go do that but I managed to set a record. A near life-first record. Yeah, I'm that sad of a kid!

I jogged a mile for the second time in my life without stopping. I'm near up to the point where I was when I was exercising last year! I didn't even stop there, I managed to go jogging for a whole extra 1/4th to 1/3rd of a mile after a bit of cooldown walking. After more walking I just did a bit of a run until I got home which didn't really last too long. But some situps/pushups after ward made me feel really good. Awe yeahh....

As I said in the last post, this is something I was going to kinda address in this blog. I'm really not exactly the healthiest person ever, which sucks. Then again it really is my fault, which is why I haven't really gone and put the blame on other people; in my eyes I have no right to be doing things like that. My weight has always been a gigantic issue in my life in every aspect you can possibly think of. I used to run about a year ago, about a year and a half ago to be exact. I was doing amazing for myself; I had incentive, confidence, all the things I've lacked in these past few months. My mother became diagnosed with Brain and Lung cancer, it sorta put a damper on my exercising schedule. I stopped running, though I had lost a significant amount of weight and was happy with the way I looked. Due to a little problem over last winter, I went into a depression and... well, I got all of that weight back.

Now I'm running and exercising, and I thorouhgly have been enjoying myself. I gained all my confidence, happiness, incentive back. All of it. So this blog will probably be getting a ton of updates about my progress, it's something I'm proud of so if you don't like it or find it annoying, then... well you're just a bad person.

right. after exercising, I did really nothing. I had to go to verizon cause I'm dumb with my phone, but I did manage to get all of my pictures back on my phone! ALL of the pictures in the past 2+ years from my old phone... all of them! They're on my phone again! SO HAPPYYYY :D I think someone will appreciate it. But really, nothing other than that! I've been working on this blog for over an hour; during the hour I've been watching The Dark Knight and playing this damned addictive puzzle game on my phone... I SWEAR IT'S ADDICTIVE. I'm on level...256. Yeah. THATADDICTIVE.

Oh well. I've been so friggin distracted, I started this blog around 9:30 and it's like 10:37. WHATTHEFRICK. I love The Dark Knight... and this game. :|

Ohgoditgodlate. movie. i'm sure you can all understand.

I think that's going to conclude my day; just know there hasn't been a single moment that's passed by where I haven't thought of my Pineapple. <3 Speaking of which, I did say I would expand on Piny's present... Maybe I can explain the present? Not much to explain without giving it away. It's just... I think she may hate it and it may be an extremely bad gift. I'm trying to think of a way to make it a better gift, basically all I'm doing is going through a ton of different concepts for the same gift. I've been debating which one would be better...

What's the hint you ask, Babydoll?
The hint: You have a collection of this gift. ;)

Until next time!

It's Fridayyy, fridaaayyy...

never again will I do that...

IT'S KINDA SORTA A GOOD DAY! Only a few 'negative' things, nothing that requires bad I think. Let's start off with the gloomy news first...
First off, I woke up immediately thinking of Miss Boss; I know she was supposed to go on a huge, some-what secret mission to a state unknown... why am I really trying this? I hope the whole ride there she was safe and happy. :)
Second, I almost got into a pretty serious fight at SWIC; and though it sounds bad it really isn't as bad as I make it sound. It really was just some guy getting mad over a video game, thinking that just because he's 40 years old, he's automatically the "right" person. No, it wasn't a "Which startrek episode did this happen" type of fight. It was a type of fight where the guy judges my friend and I for the way we play a video game; thus insulting us and actually raising his voice and using some choice words. To sum it up, we were playing Marvel vs Capcom 3; it's a fighting game. I take my games seriously, as does my friend, and we decided to pick up MvC3 exactly 2 weeks ago. I've been playing it on and off since, and managed to get better than the "I'm the best player at SWIC" person. We now crush him, and he basically got extremely mad. It's causing problems.
Last, but not least, I'm reviewing a certain present I'm making Miss Boss... I've honestly thought about stopping it. I don't think she's going to like it.

Onto the good news;

I miss my Pineapple, (nickname. ;]) CARDINALS ARE GOING TO THE NCLS!!, I ran three fourths of a mile today before having to stop (Well, jogged. sue me.) And did much more than that. A lot more than that. It totaled in near a 40 minute work out. Yeah, it's shitty, but it's baby steps, damnit. I'm shooting for .8 miles at least before stopping tomorrow; no promises on that.
Besides all that, how did my day go?

Well, school went... really well. I didn't fall asleep, two of the classes were really interesting and the last one I managed to day dream heavily to get through it. Still. Not falling asleep. After school I came home and played a few games with Dugen, and immediately chained it into working out after I ate. I've only drank two cans of soda today, and I only drank the second one on pure accident. It was more of a "Well fuck, it's already open and I paid for it. I'd rather not waste this shit." So I bit the bullet.

After working out, I was feeling a hundred percent better than today, and I know why. I didn't have a proper 'cool down' period yesterday and completely overpushed myself. I know how exercise works; I know the anatomy of my own body and what I have to do to get things to work, dieting, all that stuff. I was just so dumb enough to think I could get back into running instead of sticking to jogging, and not give a cool down period. It resulted in extreme light headed-ness and a 30 minute nap.

But after working out, all I did was... well, really just watched TV! I watched TV, played a puzzle on my phone, watched the 5th game of the Cardinals... extreme sad end for Philly. :\ The only other thing I've done besides type this up is work on Piny's present.

I think I'll leave the next blog about explaining Piny's present and expanding on a certain topic I posted here... After all, tomorrow at noon I have an appointment somewhere, and after that I'm probably just going to be hanging out with my friend Kyle a majority of the day. When we hang out, we just... nerd out. completely. :| It's embarrassing.

It's extremely late; I need some sleep.

Right now it's 12:35 as I begin typin' dis. Unless all 3 girls in question took medication to force themselves to sleep, I can guess you're all either
1] Up and too excited to sleep and wanting to cry that you can't sleep so the morning can come faster
or
2] Running around extremely last minute making sure everything you need for the best weekend ever known to man is packed.

While I do already miss you (though I think I extremely over exaggerated a lot of it) and I know you're tired of hearing that and being obsessed with my clingy (Wouldn't surprised me if you ranted about it, to... HM.) I plan on writing on this blog, day by day, anything huge or important that you'll have missed with me.

Let's face it; you're going to have oodles of fun. And like every other vacation, you're going to make me force all the attention on you and your vacation and brag about how awesome and how much fun you had and tease the living shit out of me while being serious if i dare change the subject and I HATE IT

...but I'm just kidding.

No seriously, we're going to do nothing but talk about your vacation the whole time. The whole time. At least, every time we get a chance to talk. While it won't be everything I want to talk about, I won't be able to talk about everything I absolutely want. That being said... here comes the blog and its usefulness! I know you can't really read it. I get it. You have to be extremely careful and extremely sneaky about what you browse on your computer, but i know for a fact we'll never really get to email, text, or call. This is our only resort. So if you ever find time after your vacation... well, I'll have oodles of love and stories for you to read. And I expect comments. :x

I can update you with this already...

It's 12:39 AM, it just hit 12:40 as I typed this. I fucking love you and miss you already. I can only imagine how you're feeling, Miss Lulu (And the other two ;p). I can't wait to see that gorgeous smile on Tuesday...

Please have fun. For me? ;D Like I need to ask you to have fun... wait a minute...