Mini-hate-rant, most-i-love-you post. ;D

That title is five hundred percent corny.
So I didn't do nearly as much exercising as I wanted to today. I think I have to not run on tuesdays and thursdays, I'm never available to run on those days until late.
The route I usually take was majorly populated, because go figure there's some thing going on at that place every time after 5 or 6. So I couldn't run my usual route.
On top of that, I actually ran a lot instead of jogging, to see just how much I could manage before I felt like dying. Maybe dying is the wrong word, but I think everyone here gets the idea. I still managed to do a mile, so at least I did a mile.  Now that I'm done kinda mini ranting...

I did promise a certain little post to muh Goldfish, so from here on during this post it's probably going to be compiled of mush, love, mush, cuddles, snow mush (oh god i hate that mush with a passion) and... you get the idea.

You and I may only get to talk so long every week. We may only get to see each other under certain conditions that really aren't amazing conditions, unfavorable if you ask me. The stuff we deal with just to stay together is outrageous, and the stress and pressure you deal with from this whole relationship (Whether it be from me or other sources.) is monumental. I don't know how I could ever deal with all that, I'm just not that kind of person. But I do know that you're the strongest woman I've ever known.

I have absolutely no regrets in this relationship, and I truthfully wish nothing would change for you and I. What we deal with is ridiculous and bullshit, there isn't anyway around the restrictions. But it makes me loving all the more stronger, you're like a forbidden princess. I love you, Babe, and I'm sorry for all the things I've said today that may have irked you a bit. I really am. Truly, I am. I know I say it all too much and because of that I can't really express just how sorry I am. You haven't had the best week ever. Well, okay, maybe you have, but that just means i have to raise the bar and give you an even better week/weekend sooner or later, whether a certain party likes it or not.

We're not distancing, we're growing closer. I admit that we aren't nearly as close as we use to be, but that's publicly showing it. We really have done nothing but get closer. Emotionally, intellectually... we've been more in tone in every aspect, we know exactly what to say and when to say it (For the most part...), we've been understanding and more helpful than ever before. An "I love you" has never gotten old in this relationship, one of those phrases could travel eternities between you and I. Our love knows no limit, like the stars in the sky. Somewhere out there, I know there's a star that represents our love. One day I'll find that star [hint: corny present incoming eventually. ;)]

I'm so super glad you had an amazing time this weekend, I just truthfully wish I could somehow be more involved in it all. That's all. That's another part of my clinginess. I just want to... well, be with you. There isn't a lack of anything in the relationship, it's just my will to grow closer. Sorta like... getting engaged, or moving in together. This makes absolutely no sense, so I'm just going to shut up now.

And before I bore the fuck out of you and give you too much to read, I think I'm going to sorta conclude this message, mom. (HAHAHAHA C WUT I DID THAR, MOM?) no idea where I was going with that..
You're the reason I do all the good things I do in my life. You're the reason I keep living day to day. I'm your reason you manage to actually live, and I'm also your own personal drug(twilite]. I'm that cocky and egotistical, lol.

I hope you have an amazing tuesday night and wednesday, you know that I'll be thinking of you near every minute on the minute, just because I love you that much. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

and by the way, I know near everything I say sounds repetitive. That's something you need to forgive me for, I guess. I just... when you're sitting and you're completely hujjlegizzle'd (what) and don't know what to say, but you know you want to convey your care, trust, emotions, thoughts with someone... convey everything you've ever felt and known to someone? You know... love.
It's hard. Besides, you bring out the best in me in person. ;) I feel more pressured that way. (Good thing! not bad! No tease!)