Somewhere out there.

Somewhere out there, you're having loads of fun with a friend you haven't seen in the longest time, among other sorts of fun. I can only imagine what you got for your birthday, too.

Happy Birthday, Goldfish. I just really wish I could have celebrated it with you. There hasn't been a minute that's gone by where I've thought about you and what you're doing today.

I promise, you'll get the best, most amazing birthday gift as soon as possible.

p.s., watching american dad. 8) I know you'd be happy about that. I can't wait to see you.

A message for you, Lulu

I really wish we could talk right now. :\ So much shit is just spiraling down, it's sending me into a mini depression or some shit. I kind of hate it.

I would've emailed this, but I've got the worst feeling about email right now.

Sometimes, I just wanna move out.

I love being forced to do shit that I don't want to do, and be given empty promises. :| Swear to god, my family is the most fucked up family on this earth.

i'm extremely bored. It's a weekend, and I'm bored. grr.

rant.

HM. A bit of a reply.

I use this blog like it's my away message...

So, first off, if any of you read my Lulu's blog, you'll see something about Creepy Watson. I owned that game, even in the 'beta' or 'earlier' form of it, I experienced it. Too bad I couldn't get fucking ANYWHERE in that game and never enjoyed it as much as I should have.

Second off, I actually had a pretty weird dream last night. I woke up with my heart beating and scared to shit for a second, thinking it was real.

I was in Saint Louis as a sort of secret agent, except I worked alone. I was with my best friend Dugen at the Arch in saint louis where the dream started off with him and I talking, and parting ways. I made my way towards the metro train, and upon walking up the stairs in the city I had seen a man around the corner looking at me with a revolver pointed right at my face. In a matter of a second he shot the gun, but I knew he was going to try and shoot me. I ducked and managed to grab the gun and pull it out of his hands to immediately pistol whip him and knock him on his ass. I shot his legs about four times, two times each leg and had him sitting there in a lot of blood and a lot of pain. I continued to pound his face until we heard the train coming, except it was like a minute or two away.

I took his rag-doll, yet still living body and threw him down on the tracks and fucking booked it. I ran through out STL, which suddenly became ridiculously dark, to get to a different station in order to get home. I I realized that it was basically a long waste of time, and after about thirty minutes of traveling and getting lost I made my way back to the original metro station. Cops were everywhere, but the body was cleaned up. I heard the cops having commotion about the 'poor bastard being mutilated, check the cameras" and stuff like that, as there weren't any witnesses thankfully. I pretended to act shocked and I was questioned, claiming I was at the arch waiting for a friend who never showed up. I told them "I was stood up" And I got them to sort of believe me.

The train came slowly, and I got on in the front, far, far away from the cops (or as far as I could.) As soon as the train started going, the cops started shooting their guns at the train as I heard a man yell "IT'S HIM! IT'S HIM!" I went all "oh shit" mode and shot out the lights so no one could see me, the woman started to panic and I told her "It'll be okay." And ran away from her so she couldn't see me. I stayed ducked, and again, no one was in my train but they were in the other one. The train kept going, the woman for some reason didn't stop, and I managed to be unseen for some time. I found a small place on the train to stay ducked and hidden, and finally I heard someone walking in my train. I had gotten rid of the revolver at the scene of the crime as I left, I forgot to say that, so I was completely unarmed at this point in time.

The footsteps got closer and were right in front of me, when I finally heard "Mike!" and it scared the shit out of me that the person had seen me. It woke me up,  because as I woke up my grandma was trying to call my name. Go figure... thanks for scaring me Grandma.

Blah.

So I deleted the old bummer post to edit this one. Well, I edited it. Same thing.

Happy Halloween, everyone. Turns out I'm not even handing out candy tonight! Fantastic. .____.; We've had like 0 kids, and my parents want to do it. In a way I guess that's a blessing in disguise... right? Just a bummer Halloween ever since someone spoiled me to one amazing super duper awesome Halloween. >:|

I think tonight is gonna be the time to do some private work. Or super duper relaxation. I'll think of something. :)

Happy Halloween, once again, everyone! Especially you, Boo. <3

Such a peaceful, boring night.

Peaceful around this house, though it's extremely boring.

I really wish I could talk to yew. <3 Just felt like postin', I've got absolutely nothing to do! Going insane...

CARDINALS WIN

2011 BABY 2011 EW WIN WINEW I'M SO HAPPY AHDKJHF:DSJF:DSJAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
CARDINALS WIN THE WORLD SERIES
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Hey...

You no say "no reply." I told you, default is... unless you say I can reply, I no reply.

Anyway, I just wanted to let you know that... it really comforts me reading that.

I hope you have an amazing night, because your Cubby is literally screaming in his neighborhood over this game 7 of the world series! The neighbors thought I was in trouble and almost called the cops; they found out I was just super excited with my dad. :)

I love you. I'll tell you everything I want to respond with in person, or... if we talk before then, before then~

Hope you have an amazing Halloween, Goldfish. <3

Dear Goldfish,

I know you probably don't care...

BUT OH MY GOD I'M SO HAPPY ABOUT THIS WORLD SERIES GAME
CARDINALS WINNNNNNNNNNNNN
CARDINALS
CARDINALSA
CARINDFKSJF:SD!

I'm LOLing really hard.

"AND I DROPPED MY PHONE, WOOHOO!" click.

<33 I love you too much. xD

so

I'm probably having one of the worst days I've had yet this month. fucking fantastic

I really don't know if I'm going to show up tomorrow, I really don't. If you can comment on this, tell me, do you really want me to come tomorrow? Would you understand if I didn't show up one more time?

Hrm...

So my phone never told me about my update until 20 minutes after you'd sent them.. (e-mail.)
Not sure if it was safe to reply. :<

So this cat loves me.

Apparently, there's this wild/stray cat in our neighborhood. Not a cat, a kitten. This kitten is so small, such a baby, and has fell in love with my friend Kyle and I.

So much so that, after leaving him outside for near 3 hours because we're not letting him in, we walk outside of my house at 10:30 at night and he's waiting on my porch for us...

I hope we can find this guy a home, or his owner.

Sorry, Boo

I know you've been waiting for this, but
I'm 99% sure that isn't the ring. But still.

WORLD SERIES.

WORLD.
FUCKING.
SERIES.

She... read...

...and commented on them all...

...

....Whoa...

Mini-hate-rant, most-i-love-you post. ;D

That title is five hundred percent corny.
So I didn't do nearly as much exercising as I wanted to today. I think I have to not run on tuesdays and thursdays, I'm never available to run on those days until late.
The route I usually take was majorly populated, because go figure there's some thing going on at that place every time after 5 or 6. So I couldn't run my usual route.
On top of that, I actually ran a lot instead of jogging, to see just how much I could manage before I felt like dying. Maybe dying is the wrong word, but I think everyone here gets the idea. I still managed to do a mile, so at least I did a mile.  Now that I'm done kinda mini ranting...

I did promise a certain little post to muh Goldfish, so from here on during this post it's probably going to be compiled of mush, love, mush, cuddles, snow mush (oh god i hate that mush with a passion) and... you get the idea.

You and I may only get to talk so long every week. We may only get to see each other under certain conditions that really aren't amazing conditions, unfavorable if you ask me. The stuff we deal with just to stay together is outrageous, and the stress and pressure you deal with from this whole relationship (Whether it be from me or other sources.) is monumental. I don't know how I could ever deal with all that, I'm just not that kind of person. But I do know that you're the strongest woman I've ever known.

I have absolutely no regrets in this relationship, and I truthfully wish nothing would change for you and I. What we deal with is ridiculous and bullshit, there isn't anyway around the restrictions. But it makes me loving all the more stronger, you're like a forbidden princess. I love you, Babe, and I'm sorry for all the things I've said today that may have irked you a bit. I really am. Truly, I am. I know I say it all too much and because of that I can't really express just how sorry I am. You haven't had the best week ever. Well, okay, maybe you have, but that just means i have to raise the bar and give you an even better week/weekend sooner or later, whether a certain party likes it or not.

We're not distancing, we're growing closer. I admit that we aren't nearly as close as we use to be, but that's publicly showing it. We really have done nothing but get closer. Emotionally, intellectually... we've been more in tone in every aspect, we know exactly what to say and when to say it (For the most part...), we've been understanding and more helpful than ever before. An "I love you" has never gotten old in this relationship, one of those phrases could travel eternities between you and I. Our love knows no limit, like the stars in the sky. Somewhere out there, I know there's a star that represents our love. One day I'll find that star [hint: corny present incoming eventually. ;)]

I'm so super glad you had an amazing time this weekend, I just truthfully wish I could somehow be more involved in it all. That's all. That's another part of my clinginess. I just want to... well, be with you. There isn't a lack of anything in the relationship, it's just my will to grow closer. Sorta like... getting engaged, or moving in together. This makes absolutely no sense, so I'm just going to shut up now.

And before I bore the fuck out of you and give you too much to read, I think I'm going to sorta conclude this message, mom. (HAHAHAHA C WUT I DID THAR, MOM?) no idea where I was going with that..
You're the reason I do all the good things I do in my life. You're the reason I keep living day to day. I'm your reason you manage to actually live, and I'm also your own personal drug(twilite]. I'm that cocky and egotistical, lol.

I hope you have an amazing tuesday night and wednesday, you know that I'll be thinking of you near every minute on the minute, just because I love you that much. I want to spend the rest of my life with you.

and by the way, I know near everything I say sounds repetitive. That's something you need to forgive me for, I guess. I just... when you're sitting and you're completely hujjlegizzle'd (what) and don't know what to say, but you know you want to convey your care, trust, emotions, thoughts with someone... convey everything you've ever felt and known to someone? You know... love.
It's hard. Besides, you bring out the best in me in person. ;) I feel more pressured that way. (Good thing! not bad! No tease!)

She said she'll read! :D

SHE PROMISED. :X

...clingy.

So, nothing uber exciting, really. Yesterday I never mades an update, I simply got home, ate, went to pick up my friend... and nerded out more... for a long time. :\ Really. That's all I did yesterday. And today, I went and saw someone special, my Pineapple. <3 I hope she loves that nick name... Bah.

Besides all that, I'm going to go running after I a phone call coming up, and then pretty much relax the rest of the night. No homework for the win! ;D I may post something else, too. Hm. Maybe later tonight or after the run...

It's technically a post for Sunday...

But it's super duper late.
I have so many things I want to say, but it's super duper kinda late.
In a quick, general summarization...

I didz all my homework without raging!
I managed to go out and buy a new router, fantastic. :| $90 wasted, but it needed to be done. IT wasn't even my fault that we had to get a new router, but it got pinned on me.
I didn't work out, but I found out... I've already lost a considerable amount of weight. Maybe I'll talk about it later? idk.

And other than all that, I basically just nerded out with muh friends.
Tomorrow's Monday, happy yet sad at the same time.

I'll give a better post tomorrow as soon as I get home from school!

So it's... day eternity.

Countdown infinity, I'd say.
It's Saturday night, and I can only imagine the kind of fun my little sparkle is up to. I can only imagine the kind of fun she's having with her friends, geez. I could sit here and talk about how much I miss her and cannot wait to see her in the near future, but I'm sure anyone (especially Lulu herself...) knows just how much I miss the woman who has such a angelic hold on my heart.

It's another night, so it's time for another post of the blog. I wonder if she'll even read all of this... One can only hope. I'm doing this for her after all!

So today kinda was... boring, short, sucky. Sorta. I've got a lot to type, though it's really all related on the same subject nearly.

I woke up having hot flashes, sweating out of almost every pore on my body. I had to go to something at noon, I came back at about noon thirty and did almost nothing. Well, I did my math homework, at least I did two thirds of it, I've got a bit more to do and some political science homework. Still dreading going into school on Monday :l ugh. After raging at my homework, I needed some relaxation and to enjoy myself. Clearly that would mean go running/jogging, right? I'm so fucking happy, because not only did I go do that but I managed to set a record. A near life-first record. Yeah, I'm that sad of a kid!

I jogged a mile for the second time in my life without stopping. I'm near up to the point where I was when I was exercising last year! I didn't even stop there, I managed to go jogging for a whole extra 1/4th to 1/3rd of a mile after a bit of cooldown walking. After more walking I just did a bit of a run until I got home which didn't really last too long. But some situps/pushups after ward made me feel really good. Awe yeahh....

As I said in the last post, this is something I was going to kinda address in this blog. I'm really not exactly the healthiest person ever, which sucks. Then again it really is my fault, which is why I haven't really gone and put the blame on other people; in my eyes I have no right to be doing things like that. My weight has always been a gigantic issue in my life in every aspect you can possibly think of. I used to run about a year ago, about a year and a half ago to be exact. I was doing amazing for myself; I had incentive, confidence, all the things I've lacked in these past few months. My mother became diagnosed with Brain and Lung cancer, it sorta put a damper on my exercising schedule. I stopped running, though I had lost a significant amount of weight and was happy with the way I looked. Due to a little problem over last winter, I went into a depression and... well, I got all of that weight back.

Now I'm running and exercising, and I thorouhgly have been enjoying myself. I gained all my confidence, happiness, incentive back. All of it. So this blog will probably be getting a ton of updates about my progress, it's something I'm proud of so if you don't like it or find it annoying, then... well you're just a bad person.

right. after exercising, I did really nothing. I had to go to verizon cause I'm dumb with my phone, but I did manage to get all of my pictures back on my phone! ALL of the pictures in the past 2+ years from my old phone... all of them! They're on my phone again! SO HAPPYYYY :D I think someone will appreciate it. But really, nothing other than that! I've been working on this blog for over an hour; during the hour I've been watching The Dark Knight and playing this damned addictive puzzle game on my phone... I SWEAR IT'S ADDICTIVE. I'm on level...256. Yeah. THATADDICTIVE.

Oh well. I've been so friggin distracted, I started this blog around 9:30 and it's like 10:37. WHATTHEFRICK. I love The Dark Knight... and this game. :|

Ohgoditgodlate. movie. i'm sure you can all understand.

I think that's going to conclude my day; just know there hasn't been a single moment that's passed by where I haven't thought of my Pineapple. <3 Speaking of which, I did say I would expand on Piny's present... Maybe I can explain the present? Not much to explain without giving it away. It's just... I think she may hate it and it may be an extremely bad gift. I'm trying to think of a way to make it a better gift, basically all I'm doing is going through a ton of different concepts for the same gift. I've been debating which one would be better...

What's the hint you ask, Babydoll?
The hint: You have a collection of this gift. ;)

Until next time!

It's Fridayyy, fridaaayyy...

never again will I do that...

IT'S KINDA SORTA A GOOD DAY! Only a few 'negative' things, nothing that requires bad I think. Let's start off with the gloomy news first...
First off, I woke up immediately thinking of Miss Boss; I know she was supposed to go on a huge, some-what secret mission to a state unknown... why am I really trying this? I hope the whole ride there she was safe and happy. :)
Second, I almost got into a pretty serious fight at SWIC; and though it sounds bad it really isn't as bad as I make it sound. It really was just some guy getting mad over a video game, thinking that just because he's 40 years old, he's automatically the "right" person. No, it wasn't a "Which startrek episode did this happen" type of fight. It was a type of fight where the guy judges my friend and I for the way we play a video game; thus insulting us and actually raising his voice and using some choice words. To sum it up, we were playing Marvel vs Capcom 3; it's a fighting game. I take my games seriously, as does my friend, and we decided to pick up MvC3 exactly 2 weeks ago. I've been playing it on and off since, and managed to get better than the "I'm the best player at SWIC" person. We now crush him, and he basically got extremely mad. It's causing problems.
Last, but not least, I'm reviewing a certain present I'm making Miss Boss... I've honestly thought about stopping it. I don't think she's going to like it.

Onto the good news;

I miss my Pineapple, (nickname. ;]) CARDINALS ARE GOING TO THE NCLS!!, I ran three fourths of a mile today before having to stop (Well, jogged. sue me.) And did much more than that. A lot more than that. It totaled in near a 40 minute work out. Yeah, it's shitty, but it's baby steps, damnit. I'm shooting for .8 miles at least before stopping tomorrow; no promises on that.
Besides all that, how did my day go?

Well, school went... really well. I didn't fall asleep, two of the classes were really interesting and the last one I managed to day dream heavily to get through it. Still. Not falling asleep. After school I came home and played a few games with Dugen, and immediately chained it into working out after I ate. I've only drank two cans of soda today, and I only drank the second one on pure accident. It was more of a "Well fuck, it's already open and I paid for it. I'd rather not waste this shit." So I bit the bullet.

After working out, I was feeling a hundred percent better than today, and I know why. I didn't have a proper 'cool down' period yesterday and completely overpushed myself. I know how exercise works; I know the anatomy of my own body and what I have to do to get things to work, dieting, all that stuff. I was just so dumb enough to think I could get back into running instead of sticking to jogging, and not give a cool down period. It resulted in extreme light headed-ness and a 30 minute nap.

But after working out, all I did was... well, really just watched TV! I watched TV, played a puzzle on my phone, watched the 5th game of the Cardinals... extreme sad end for Philly. :\ The only other thing I've done besides type this up is work on Piny's present.

I think I'll leave the next blog about explaining Piny's present and expanding on a certain topic I posted here... After all, tomorrow at noon I have an appointment somewhere, and after that I'm probably just going to be hanging out with my friend Kyle a majority of the day. When we hang out, we just... nerd out. completely. :| It's embarrassing.

It's extremely late; I need some sleep.

Right now it's 12:35 as I begin typin' dis. Unless all 3 girls in question took medication to force themselves to sleep, I can guess you're all either
1] Up and too excited to sleep and wanting to cry that you can't sleep so the morning can come faster
or
2] Running around extremely last minute making sure everything you need for the best weekend ever known to man is packed.

While I do already miss you (though I think I extremely over exaggerated a lot of it) and I know you're tired of hearing that and being obsessed with my clingy (Wouldn't surprised me if you ranted about it, to... HM.) I plan on writing on this blog, day by day, anything huge or important that you'll have missed with me.

Let's face it; you're going to have oodles of fun. And like every other vacation, you're going to make me force all the attention on you and your vacation and brag about how awesome and how much fun you had and tease the living shit out of me while being serious if i dare change the subject and I HATE IT

...but I'm just kidding.

No seriously, we're going to do nothing but talk about your vacation the whole time. The whole time. At least, every time we get a chance to talk. While it won't be everything I want to talk about, I won't be able to talk about everything I absolutely want. That being said... here comes the blog and its usefulness! I know you can't really read it. I get it. You have to be extremely careful and extremely sneaky about what you browse on your computer, but i know for a fact we'll never really get to email, text, or call. This is our only resort. So if you ever find time after your vacation... well, I'll have oodles of love and stories for you to read. And I expect comments. :x

I can update you with this already...

It's 12:39 AM, it just hit 12:40 as I typed this. I fucking love you and miss you already. I can only imagine how you're feeling, Miss Lulu (And the other two ;p). I can't wait to see that gorgeous smile on Tuesday...

Please have fun. For me? ;D Like I need to ask you to have fun... wait a minute...

It's been a while...

Estimated completion percentage of the present: roughly 20%. ;)

The whole world will know my love for you.
That's one hint.

Congrats on the yard sale. :)

Games. That was my weekend.

But anyway, congrats on the yard sale Lulu, give me some money, plz? ;D

I'll answer your question that we were talking about on our next time we talk, probably Tuesday. :)

I forgot to post...

Hello Thursday... :)

there's like fifteen things ive posted in the past 48 hours

and we're adding one more

I really just think I'm about to run away. For like, a week. Not legitly run away from my parents and get a search party, just... go somewhere to stop caring about -everything-
I am so stressed, thanks to my dad once again. I've still a paper to write, but... bleh. really not in the mood anymore.

I update this too much.

I cherish every moment that I talk to Lulu, each second has its own little special moment that just brightens up my day in a different way; every time. <3

So I just got out of the shower, I still need to do a tiny bit of homework. Ten problems for math and a 2-page paper. The paper is entirely my own opinion and it's for political science, so I think I can get that done in... less than 10 minutes.

After I get all that done and do some errands for my parents, I should be home semi-late. I think for the last few hours of being home, I'm going to be probably working on a gigantic project due in November. :\











































































p.s., the project isn't for school. ;)

Ugh, my days sucks x2.

Just an extra p.p.s., for Lulu,

I'm not going tomorrow. :\ I'm really thinking they hate the idea of me going now. Hm. :\

i'm sorry, Boo. Really, I'm extremely sorry.

My day... sucked kinda.

Last night, it was around 9. I had texted my aunt to see if she was up so we could talk, just cause I had a curious/small question at the time. Her being asleep, I ignored it, and went to sleep at about midnight.
It's 4 Am. Four. Fucking. AM. And my aunt calls me. I immediately hit "end" to ignore it, and turn back over (mind you, for the 4 hours I was asleep, I didn't move once.) 10 minutes after I ignored it, she texted me "i just got your message is everything okay is everything alright"

Hopefully she'll realize it's fucking 4 AM my time and I'm not up at 4 AM, so she'll ignore me. Nope. An hour later, she calls me A FUCKING GAIN after tossing and turning. That bitch. I ignored it, again, not being able to fall aslepe, and she texts me again. I didn't even read the text, in my sleep I texted "kim im fucking tired let me sleep" ugh. That really ticked me off, but whatever. I ended up with no sleep, cause after that I couldn't go back to sleep. I woke up with my whole body just shaking out of control, my stomach just aching in pure pain, my head spinning, over heated, and having a huge headache... My day really sucked. I wanted to stay home, but I refused, so I still went to school. And (go figure) didn't really do much.

So my whole day was just bleh, I near fell asleep in every class and now I have a ton of homework for today which I plan on doing. But after getting home, I managed to figure out everything about my credit card. I don't have to make payments until basically 4 weeks after I use my credit card! And I only get charged $2! yes! :D So i went and bought tons o' food to pig out... but nothing to bring with me in a bottle form... Hm...

So other than that... I won and guessed correctly, so Lulu owes me a huge, gigantor kiss. :)
On top of that, she's extremely confuzzled about my gaming post! :D

So yeah, I'mma go now, and get stuff done. More posts soon!

p.s., brittnee, the special picture is all super bended and stuff and it is my fault... I should've brought a notebook to take it home in it so it wouldn't be... Babe, I'm extremely sorry. I really didn't mean to... it's not completely brokended or anything, but... it's not in the best condition... :( Babe, I'm sorry. Forgive me.

An away message for Lulu,

I sat here for a whole 20 some-odd minutes! It got to 6:05, and I thought "why... why she no call? :|"

I was gonna be all stubborn like I usually am and call you, but I had to stop. Think. What was happening to Brittnee...
After thinking of two situations where it would've been bad in general if I had even tried to contact you, I realized your phone diedz. :)
If I am right, I earned a gigantic kiss on the lips.

Anyway, I understand. It's like 6:10 now, you would've given me SOME sort of "Sorry!" even if it was a text on the way home. It's best I don't contact you in case something gets checked, I think you know what.

You better has a safe drive home... :< Es rush hour.

In any case, other things to note
-I don't know if I'm going to be there Thursday. Our friends don't seem too happy about it.
-The picture you made me is all brokened! :( It's all bended and not cute looking... I wanna buy a frame for it, but I know you forbid me.
-The walk home wasn't all that bad. :D

Any updates I have I'll post tonight, tomorrow mid-day (as soon as I'm home from school) or tell you tomorrow if we talk. Promise.

holy jesus how did i do that!?

So I'm sitting here playing some Super Street Fighter 4 Arcade Edition on my XBAWKZ, and I'm starting to play the scrub character, the character you use when you're on the dark side... Yun. dundudnunnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
I'm not amazing with Yun, but I'd like to think I'm better than the average player. For those of you who aren't aware of what this means, there's 39 characters in Street Fighter. It's a 2d fighting game (well 3d, but on a 2d field.) and of these 39 characters, there are some with 'fireballs' that people know them by. In the original versions of the game, the fireball characters were the best and top-tier on a tier list. Now, people like Yun are. Yun is the best character in the game due to what he has, and the only real counter to a Yun? is a Zangief.

Yun: A very short, barely 5-foot-5 chinese kid who jumps around a lot.
[img]http://iplaywinner.com/storage/oneuse/105yun_01.jpg?__SQUARESPACE_CACHEVERSION=1287997458231[/img]

Zangief: A gigantic mother fucking russian wrestler who turns people like yun into a playtoy:
[img]http://imacwallpapers.com/wallpapers/GAM123c3668ad3a5254/GAM123c3668ad3a5254_408x230.jpg[/img]

Literally on an in-game scale, it takes almost four yuns to equal a zangief in size.

Anyway, so I'm playing... and I come across a Zangief player. Not only is it a direct counter to me, but It's the 26th ranked zangief player in the world. ...and somehow I BEAT HIM... TWICE.

We played, I won, I pretty much mindfucked him and he didn't even expect it. I ended up getting matched with him AGAIN after I'm running through the house at 10 at night with everyone, screaming "I WON I WON I WON". And yet again, I had won with completely different STRATEGIEZ and stuffz! I got so excited, and he actually sent me a message, saying "wow, first yun i've had trouble with" so freaking excited. And I'm ranked like... the 14,000th player on xbox live.


So that's how my awesome nice as been. Aside from my nerd-gasming, I actually thought of something very amazing. One of the best ideas I've had in the past year. I wonder if I should post it on here... If I don't post it now, people will find out in 3 months I think.

nerd ramble and being mushymush.

So, after leaving to go run an errand in the middle of the night (which is absolutely dumb; like picking up a parent at work. hinthint.), I'm sitting down with very few things to do. I've realized that I actually have a blog, and instead of only posting on it for away messages for my special Goldfish to read, or posting on it to get an emo rant out, I decided to actually use this. Why not, right?


supnerdramble


So my week has been pretty okay, it's been pretty eventful for the good and the worse, really at about 50/50 so it's hard to say. One of the biggest highlights of my week that I'm actually going to post about (because if I post something else, I'm giving away a surprise) is that the new Counter-Strike was released. yes. want. I wish I could post an actual gameplay trailer or something of it, but all the ones that there are basically suck. Wait until October, whenever the real professionals get their hands on it and it looks a ton better.

I also found out one of my good friends lost his girlfriend today. No, she didn't die :P But she did break up with him. he's completely wrecked by this, and I really feel bad for him. I'll probably end up hanging out with him some time during this week to make sure he's okay.

Other than that, I've been doing pretty good. School started, this semester seems like it'll be a lot easier than I've made it out to be. I really need to buckle down and focus, and hopefully by the end of this semester two of three goals will be fulfilled, which I'm sure they will be. All I need to do is survive this one semester, and I think the whole "operation: reallife" will start for me. I also am finding a lot of time to go up and spend some time with my Penguin up at her school to let her know just how much I love her and to show her all the attention that I possibly can. After all, she deserves every bit of it.

'Dis the mushymush part of the blog. Our lives are much different due to one main factor; parents. Fantastic, right? Pretty dumb to read. We both go to different schools, have different hobbies, and we're basically like Romeo and Juliet. We're near forced to never communicate with one another. After I do everything that I do in my life that is absolutely mandatory (like, say, school or chores.) I look at every second in the future, and I find out which sections I'm able to cut out of my time to devote that much time to my girlfriend. I've missed opportunities to see her, but I make sure I at least talk to her in some way. I hope she reads this, which I'm sure she will, but I do this because I show her just how important she is and just how valued she is in our relationship. Contrary to what people think or believe, we're leading a very healthy relationship. Why? Cause we care for each other and we make it work. :D

I got mushy after an e-mail tonight. sue me. sue? seu? I have no idea. Soo. Soo me.

That's all i wanted to say. Pz blog, update tomorrow 8)

After phone hang up

We've talked about it, about the "perfect girlfriend", and the only thing I wish you were different about? The only thing I would ever change about you would be the appreciation for the music that I like. Metal, heavy metal, progressive, everything.

You are perfect in every way, and I'll tell you what ways with my actual voice, but I LOVE how we have HUGE differences in music. I just honestly wish we could have conversations about Metal, stuff I create with my brother, other bands, and the true artistic skills behind the music. That's the only thing I would change.

...and your parents. But that's a given.

p.s., on the way home thursday, Ash, brian and I were talking about going against a Lion in a cage for $150,000. I said "Not even for a million." And ashley turned around. "Would you fight a lion in a cage if Brittnee's parents would never hate you again?"
Before she could even finish the question, I said "Yes. Without a doubt."

it's natural

"It's natural for the bird to leave the nest."
That's a quote that was given to me from my Grandmother Martha a few years ago when I was on vacation, during my senior year. As of last night, I just remembered it, and I can't seem to remember when I've wanted to leave my house the most.

I'm so sick of this shit. I'm so sick of dealing with every goddamned bit of bullshit that I deal with on a daily basis from everybody in my life. Including Dugen. My parents are just complete jackoffs lately, and my grandmother has honestly been turning against me. It's almost like she doesn't care about me. My father has absolutely no respect for anyone or anything, and does nothing but raise my blood pressure. I haven't been home for a while, when I came back from school Monday my grandmother and father were gone until about 10:30. Tuesday I didn't come home until 8:30-ish, and then I didn't see or talk to my parents until again 10:30/11. Wednesday was a repeat of Monday, and Tuesday I finally came home. Within 20 minutes, I was so fucking angry and wanted to just knock out everyone. :| angerangeranger.

Later that night I ended up getting into an argument with my grandmother, and I've never felt so betrayed, so... unloved, so unsupported in my life. I felt like just dropping out of school and moving out and never returning to this hell hole with all the demons. It doesn't surprise me people brought up stuff about my mother, which they have absolutely no right to talk about her after all they put my poor mother through. So not only did I get an ulcer from stress, my blood pressure raised, disappointment and an overall feeling of discomfort from what my grandma said to me, but they kept near guilt tripping me about my mother. Fantastic. :|

Honestly. I'm truly a happy person under two conditions, with any other factors not even factoring in.

The first one is when I'm not at this place.. No matter what, I could be at school, I could be pulled over by a cop. If I'm not at this place, I'm completely happy. I was happy for that 4-day period without talking to either of my parents. This isn't home. This is a fucking bullshit disaster excuse of a shelter.

The second one is the most important one, I could be losing my life from a murder stabbing my back and stomach and I could still be happy under this condition. The most important one is whenever I'm with my Engagie, and she knows who she is. In fact, she (or you) are probably reading this right now. Hey there. You haven't missed much.

I've really needed an outlet of either anger or just ranting ever since yesterday, but I had nothing to do it to. I had to just ramble on here, it was my only invitation to lose the frustration. It's why my random thoughts are coming down onto here.

I'm just so fucking sick of everything. I'm now getting judged, and near punished for every little thing I do in my life right now.

I really need a hug. I really needed someone's voice today. I was so let down when I didn't get that.

mushymush. it aint even snowing outside yet.

lol. See what I did there!? I hate the mush in the winter, it gets so... bleh. But the LOVEYDOVEY mush, which is what THIS is about... ;D

So I know I was all emo in that last post and I get all dramatic and you truthfully get tired of it, I wasn't trying to sound emo and all that.  I also know it sounded clingy, I just want you to know how much you truthfully mean to me. That during your whole drive home, I stopped to think to myself, "Where would I be if I had left that parking lot at this time... going this fast, probably around that one curve..."

I'll see you Thursday. <3 That's a promise. :) I can't wait to see you.

I'm so happy this will all work out... Maybe not every day I can come see you, but close enough. ;D If I'm allowed to come with Ashley and Brian, I will definitely go. That I promise.

Got out of the shower a bit ago, I'm so freaking tired. That's one thing I'm not ready for... Going to sleep around 1, waking up so freaking early.

6:09, i says bye

6:09, i says bye
i get sad :(
clingy? yes
love you? more than you can imagine

I'm happy though. Things are going to work out for us this semester, Babe... You dont know how happy I am to realize that.

I'll still post a cutesy blog after this, but I just wanted to say how much I really love you.

away message

When you say "You don't have to respond", I'm not sure if you mean it's an auto nono.
Seriously! I just saw that article 2 days ago and was meaning to show you next time we had some free time! So unfair that you discovered it!
Bah. Whatever. On the off chance you read this, 10 AM tomorrow. Call me, Baby. :) <33

p.s., I love you and miss you... If you can still chat/email, let's! Xoxoxo

A better day.

So I woke up today still kinda sore and tired from everything, but overall I recovered a majority of the damage that I had received from the abuse at a friends house.

Today I wasn't really alive- I just walked around thinking to myself and planning. I dunno why I write this, I get absolutely no views when I do this stuff- maybe I'm doing it just to make someone happy. Give them a special update on my life when we aren't talking. :D

Sooooo sore...

It just proves I'm a lazy bum.
I wake up more sore than I've ever felt the whole summer for some odd reason, sleeping absolutely sucked I guess. Either that I just was active a lot yesterday with my Goldfish.
I loved yesterday so much. :) I hope you did, too. <3

fdkjal;

i have something i absolutely need to tell you, and the sooner i tell you the better
i shouldn't text you or contact you that way, but it may come down to that soon.

I just hope you're okay.

I'm near worrying myself sick.
I hope you're okay. I love you.
Worrying too much, aren't I?
I wish I could be there and take care of you...

Comfort.

While these past few days have been even more rough than I can actually describe and tell you, the most important thing to me, and my most important worry, is what's keeping me up at night. It's 4:30 AM. I don't want to go to bed. I can't sleep. I'm so worried. My only regret is that I can't be there to comfort you.

Baby, you're stronger than I ever have been. I know you can do this, even with that time of the week going on. I wish I could be there to comfort you and hold your hand, keep you in bed all day and help you to the bathroom if you needed it, getting your meds, drinks, yogurt, icecream, whatever it is you needed. Doing every little thing you needed done around the house, and taking care of your every wish and your every need, just so I can eventually hold you close at night in my arms as you fall asleep, knowing that you can go to sleep worry-free in the most protecting arms you've ever felt.

I love you, Brittnee, and I know you're going to make it through. It's just the last thing I really need to worry about right now.

I love you. Xoxoxo. Goodnight & Sweet Dreams...

Last night...

Last night was kinda bleh, but overall fun. Kinda. I ended up getting tons of candy from the mall, and I also ended up playing our CEVO match. We're 4-0! :D We're about to be 5-0 next week, maybe. It depends just how good this next team really is. Hopefully we stay undefeated, we've been predicted to win the whole season undefeated.

I'm just waking up and thought I'd make this little blog. Why? Cause I has an idea. Besides continuing to work on the little surprise for my wonderful, caring Girlfriend, I thought of a new thing I could work on. Something Art related. For her! Just wondering how to carry it out...

OUTRAGEOUSNESS

Besides being extremely exhausted as of late, I managed to watch the MvC3 and SSFIV:AE tournament at evo...

The most anticipated matchup for the past 11 months happened, and not only did Poongko win the match of the year, Poongko fucking BODIED AND STOMPED the BEAST. 4-0, Poongko > Daigo, even getting a PERFECT ON DAIGO! WHAT THE HELL!

It ran Daigo into losers, Daigo only getting 4th as he lost to Latif. Honestly, Daigo had Latif, but sadly he got dominated because he made 2 dumb mistakes when trying to link combos. :l

Daigo, dogg, switch back to Ryu.

'aight...

now that i'm settled...

First, that was a fantastic night, what with the taco bell and "The Proposal." I loved that night, and I remember the nachos we had and how I had barely dipped my stuff in cheese cause i'm a dork and am very... tentative towards cheese. I guess that's what we can say...

Second, I had an amazing time. I wish we could've stayed. Though the trip really made me think, especially with what you were saying for a good part of the 'trip'. I was thinking negatively, but not in a "I'm so emo :<" way, in a "This is bad, hao fix".
I just get so scared and silly sometimes. I can't wait until we can see each other and have an us day. It's what we need.

Third, sorry I no post sooner, even though I'm pretty sure you didn't read anything last night. I hope last night for you was okay; I immediately went to see my mom, drove my dad back (was drinking), ate dinner, and at 10 PM at night in the middle of the dark drove back out to mascoutah to go spend the night with my mom. I had to wake up at 6 and drive back and be home by 7:30, sadly. I didn't get a single fucking bit of sleep, worst night of sleeping in my life. Ugh. Maybe I'll go try to nap..

I really, really love you & miss you, Brittnee. <3

blah. already leaving.

i'm leaving (as soon as I get home, go figure) but as soon as I get back, I got a big update for you, Goldfish. <3 And I'll comment on your stuff.

In case you read this...

I'm still fine, I'm doing amazing, and nothing is wrong with me. :)
I'm going to see you all day thursday. I'm going to be happier than ever when I run up to you, unlike tuesday. Can you promise me you'll do the same? :<

A message to my Princess.

I understand you probably won't be able to read this until after you and I talk some day, but just in case you do read this I wanted to say a few things.

I'm sorry that I ignored you. I'm sorry that I didn't talk to you in your time of need. Sure, I may have won our match, but I wish I didn't play it and talked to you instead. I don't know why I didn't. Bah.

I just really miss you. After we were done, I just sat here and kind of felt bummed. I hope you're okay at home. I'm sending you kissies through my window- blowing them and hoping you receive them... I love you. I hope you can forgive me.

p.s., my grandma says hi and that she loves you. I told her you do as well. Then again, she never forgets you do.

I really did it to myself this time...

It's 12:55 AM. I just got finished playing/watching the whole remake of resident evil for the gamecube, and how fucking scary that game is... I went into the kitchen and grabbed something to drink. Turned off the light, then the whole house was completely dark. I went into panic mode and ran to my room. I'm such a little girl...

I'm scared. D: monsters need to go away, wtfx.

Even though you tease the hell out of me...

And last night the teasing was extreme...

I'm going to come see you Tuesday, hopefully, and I'd much prefer to put my little message into words rather than on this blog, but happy 18 months, Goldfish. We've gone through a lot of things together, and I like to think that my promise has held through for the most part. "Through thick and thin- I'll be here." Don't you think I've held that promise?
I love you so much, and I can only imagine what we're going to encounter in our life as we grow old together. All I need is you by my side, and I think I'll be ready for anything and everything. <33

I'm a heavy thinker.

Caramel popcorn is all in my teeth, I'm watching Trailer Park Boys, extremely hot in my room as I'm sitting in nothing but my boxers, and I'm feeling a little alone tonight. Here I come to post a little something.

Last night after I had arrived home from seeing the most wonderful woman in the world, I had a complete moment of silence in my room. I didn't hear any TV, none of my parents were talking, I didn't even hear any fans. Just utter complete silence. I had some light as I sat there before I did anything, just looking down at a piece of paper that was in my hands.

It was a little note my wonderful girlfriend had written for me while she was in class. While I wish she would do her work, I know she only would do something like this if she had the free time, so I'm not at all mad for her not paying attention in class. I know her so well, I know she was paying attention. She did this to surprise me.

The note was talking about our love, and how she considers herself extremely lucky to have me, and how much she really cherishes me. It made me stop to think about how much she tells me she loves me, and how much she misses me and wants to be held by me, about how she's sorry and blames herself for the predicament we're in regarding our relationship. It's perfectly clear to me that she absolutely loves me, and that she believes I'm her soulmate. It made me get lumpy throated and cold-hearted, as I shed one single tear quietly.

I never show her any appreciation, not nearly as much as she does. I ignore her every time we talk to play a video game (Maybe not the whole time, but the fact is I do.) I've told her in a very rude, mean way that "I cant talk" during my vacation, when I would have never done that to begin with. Sometimes I feel lonely and left out without her, and when my friends talk to me about their relationships or ask me about mine, they make me feel so bad like I don't even have a girlfriend- But I do, and they're totally mistaken assholes.

I just feel so bad about the whole thing, and I really needed to say something. I love you, Brittnee, with all my heart. Without you, things have been terrible in so many ways. I stopped being responsible in a gigantic variety of ways, I've always come to worry thinking that our relationship might not last, I've even had a few girls try to steal me away from you. All of which I basically shoved it all back in their face, as you're aware. ;) I could never be with any other woman other than you, I can't even fathom it

I just really wanted to say that I love you, and if it wasn't for you I don't know what I would be doing with myself today. I just needed to say that I plan on showing my love and affection for you in some way, soon, even though it's extremely difficult as you can't keep anything. But I'm trying, I promise you, I am trying. I'm going back on track with responsibilities, and I plan on giving you my love and attention the whole way through. I smile and get lumpy throated when I think about you and I living together... About us being engaged... Gah. I shouldn't say anything about that- I don't want to ruin any surprises. ;) (Such a tease!)

I love you, Babygirl. I just wanted you to know. <3

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So... Day 1.

Today's Sunday, tomorrow's Monday.  Tomorrow I get to see the one and only. :) I hope she's feeling better. </3

Right now I'm setting a goal for myself, mainly because I'm tired of procrastination and being an idiot. And having low self esteem. We're going to see if I can maintain running 4 days a week. Right now I'm writing reminders all over my wall, and frequent websites I visit, just to make sure I don't give up on it, along with my main reasons to get back into shape.

I have broken english in all sorts right now, so none of what I just posted probably made sense, but I've been sorta bummed and broken. After a series of incidents, I'm tired of basically being a fatty. I was under 200 pounds whenever I was dating Brittnee, all thanks to seeing her, but ever since January I've done up in weight. Hello fatness of 230 lbs. :| Really, 232. I had started running for a bit, then the vacation happened and that went to shit. Now I'm dead serious. I just poured out all the soda I -just- bought for myself, that's kinda funny.

updates later, but I'm leaving in a bit then running immediately afterward.

Mm, tomorrow I start a project.

A fun little project, I think. In the morning I plan on talking to my Babygirl, getting awoken somehow from her. During the time I talk and email her, I found something to do that will occupy me while I talk to her. I hope she likes it, she'll see it by the time her dad gets home! <3

I'm just posting around, I've had a bad day and needed to say something to bring a smile to my face.

One of the worst parts: My necklace my Baby gave me last year is rusting. :( At the joins of the necklace, basically at the butt of the necklace. It's not hard to wear, but I think it's either going to be unwearable or break in the next month or two. D:

IT'S FRIDAY! FRIDAY!

...You know what that means?
Tomorrow, I get to talk to my woman.
Then Sunday..? I get to talk to my woman some more.
Then Monday, I talk to my woman a lot more! :D

I'm getting sick, I think. I've been debating going to see a doctor, my nose/throat sucks so bad. :X

Anyway, random little thought. I'm excited. About 20 hours left! :D

It's Monday night.

4th of July was an absolute disaster for us, but no one's hurt.
Right now I'm just counting down the time until it's Thursday, that way I get to go see my Babygirl.

What? You thought I forgot about you? Please, Woman... you've been on my mind ever since this vacation started, you've been haunting my thoughts, and I can't stop thinking about you.

I love you, Goldfish. <3 I'll see you soon, and talk to you sooner than that. ;D <3 Xoxoxo

Day 1 & 2: How aren't we dead yet?

Days one and two of this amazing vacation has been something ridiculous, let me reassure you guys.

It all started with Dugen sending me a text in the whee hours of the morning. "I'm running this close, I'm scared." "...What?" "It says the airports 89 miles away, and I'm going 86, and my flight leaves in an hour." "WHY DID YOU WAIT SO LONG TO LEAVE, BRO?" "i've got it under control."
Dugen was running a little late, and the MINIMUM he went on the highway was 12 over the speed limit. He even found himself going 95 at one point in time, in a 60 for fuck sake.
He made it to the airport on time, he got in line 35 minutes before his flight left. However, he wasn't helped until 29 minutes before. He got into a huge fight with the woman behind the desk, she refused to let him on the plane because he was 29 minutes early instead of 30.
"You're telling me that one minute means everything, huh?" "That's right, sir. I'm sorry, sir, I cannot let you on that plane." He was furious, fucking pissed: Because we found out he could get on the next flight(s), the next to Denver was at 8 PM, and the next to STL was going to be 10 PM at night on thursday, meaning he would've been arriving TODAY. Ugh.
It all got sorted out, though, he's here, basically one of the guys snuck him through the line and told him "it's dumb, she should've let you go. Just run to your plane."

I eventually had to wait six douchebagging hours (I WAS SO BORED) until I went to go pick up Tyler & Dugen from the airport. Dugens flight came in at 6 PM on the fucking dot, and Tyler's came in at 6:30. It wouldn't worked amazingly, and we would've been golden. I got on the metro at 4:30, arriving at about 5:30 at the airport and waiting 30 minutes for Dugen, until I find out he has a delay in Denver. Shearing winds, tornados. Dugens plane was over two hours late. I found Tyler and we waited from about 6:30 until about 7:35 when Dugen got in. The second we got in we booked it to the metro and left and came back home. We didn't get in Swansea until about 9. We went to Shop'N'Save for sun screen and soda, tea and juice, then we went to steak n shake and ate quickly. We got home at about 10, when we surprised Craig and basically hung out for 4 hours at my house and going to walmart cause we're retarded.

Six flags was Thursday, we woke up with only slept for about 3 hours that whole night, got a nice breakfast, wasn't really prepared, and left early to get there early. It wasn't worth it at all. My stomach was killing me from the lack of sleep all day, and about 3 hours into it a huge headache started to kick in, yet everyone else was fine. Dugen got blisters on his foot from the water park, and Craig's sunglasses broke, but stuff happens. There's so much that went wrong at six flags, but overall my day completely sucked at six flags. I really don't want to go back; I don't think I will.

We got back from six flags and grandma cooked us some amazing dinner, then we went and played poker, watched jackass 3.5 then just messed around in my house until 4. And I just woke up at 11.

A lot of bad things happened; I made the most amazing woman I know (In fact, I'm dating her.) feel lonely and abandoned, as well as not cared for. I'm just trying my best to let her know that isn't the case and that I love her very much. My headache and stomachache hasn't really disappeared, but despite all of that it's been the funniest vacation yet. I'm going to die of laughter.

ONE MORE NIGHT AMG

NOT EVEN ONE MORE NIGHT. IN TWELVE HOURS. YES. >:D
Best vacation I've had yet, here it comes omgomgomgogm :D I've been waiting 3 months for my bed buds Tyler and Dugen to come to STL for a visit. And now it's finally here, after weeks of planning and preparing.

HAI DEE, U MY NEW FOLLOWER! I know I signed my death warrent, die-ann, but I hope you can forgive me.

I love you, Goldfish. I know I've been harsh recently, by ignoring you and all that, I just... I really want you to know I sorry. :< Just know I thinking of you! I can't wait until you leaves me a message on Thursday! or tomorrow, but mainly Thursday! :D:D:D:D:D

god i'm so excited, i can't sleep!

A better night.

I've gotten out of my low depths of being semi-depressed and have become somewhat happy, and I'm not exactly dying for no reason. I use to feel like absolute shit, even though my shoulders could -really- use a heavy massage.

I've seen so much out in public in the past two days that makes me think of you, and I wish you were here. You have no idea, Babe.

I miss you.

I love you, Goldfish.

I'm gonna sign off of this, maybe I'll have a ton of funner, more brighter things to post tomorrow night. Only one more night after this!

Almost midnight

It's almost midnight. I'm totally leaving a ton of mini messages for you to read whenever it's Tuesday.

The only reason I'm really, really happy is because whenever I wake up, I just have to go through 3 days and 2 nights before I get to talk to you.

I really, really miss you. I just wanted you to know that.

I love you, Goldfish.

blah rant. The small nights like these...

I'm sitting here after probably the worst night I've had in a while, all thanks to my goddamned dad. It's the nights like these where I get a tiny bit depressed, then think too much about it and then it really starts to bother me. Then after all this, my dad really has to storm down and make my night a living hell.

It's the nights like these I wish you were here so I could just hug you extremely tight, while you tell me "It'll be okay." It makes me sound little and weak, I know. But gah. I really wish I could at least talk to you.

I love you, Goldfish. I just need you to know that tonight is one of those nights I need you more than ever.

p.s., I find it cute I use this blog as a "soon enough she'll read" type of message. Sort of like an away message, or a text you won't get until it's safe. Lol..

oh, and editing

p.p.s., I'm thinking about our song, Are You Gonna Kiss Me Or Not by Thomas Square. I'm not in the mood to listen to anything besides TV, but it's making me smile insanely hard.

My girlfriend lied to me...

Why did you lie, Britt? :( Why you lie? me never lie...

My messed up almost dead dream.

So in my dream, I was in my house, but it wasn't exactly in my house. It was my house, but the interior was completely different. In my house, I was alone, but there was this guy who was a serial killer. He was hunting me, and he ended up finding me in the hallway. I had a gun, he had a gun, and he got me from behind. He made me put it down, ducttaped and tied my wrists and ankles together, and had me sitting down in the living room. He was laughing as he grabbed his knife and claimed he was going to slice me on every part of my body. He got up and started to walk down the hall to grab my gun, as he did that he commanded me to walk to a certain area. (It was an 'or else' situation, but I cant think of the or else.)

as I walked, I was by the front door, my ankles and wrists got free and I ran for it. I ran out of the door and down the street before he realized I left. He came out of the door and saw me all the way down the street, and got a little cart of his to carry with him,w ith his guns and knives on him. He chased me through the yards, and managed to catch me when I was a few feet away from Craig's house. I tried to juke him by running around this shed, but he managed to get me. In the end he grabbed me and was going to stab my throat, but as he grabbed me I woke up. My heart was racing, I was sweating, and I was having a legit nightmare. It was scaaaary...

I wanted to hug you more than ever. :< why you no save me?

so i sit here

After memorizing a certain song and song title, a song entitled "Are you gonna kiss me or not?" by Thomas Square... (Because it's my Babygirl and I's song! <3) I'm finally going to go to bed.

it's 3:22 AM, technically no June 2nd, but I'm calling it the night of June 1st.

I totally fell back in love with my wonderful girlfriend tonight, and I'm posting it here because I feel sooner or later she's going to read this before her and I talk again. It's something I want her to see.

The amazing memories we create, the awesome fun we have with our good friends, and just how perfect the moments are between you and I... It's almost like that special romance movie you would see in theaters, or a play on Broadway. Except... for us, it's real.

No matter how difficult things get, I'm always going to be here. I'm never going to run and leave; I couldn't ever abandon such an amazing relationship with the hottest, most attractive woman I've ever laid eyes on; even better than any celebrity, Babygirl! <3

That's all I wanted to say. I know I said it before, going to say it again, and stole it from you, but I couldn't think of a better way to say it. I fell back in love with you. That was an amazing, magical night. I couldn't ask for a better one.

<33 Goodnight, Babygirl.
& goodnight, world.

I am done.

Finally. Done with school for the summer.
The best part is I got 3 B's, a C, and a C in a class I was expecting to fail. Holy crap.
I can't wait until I talk to my Goldfish tomorrow. <3 I know you may happen to read this, so if you do... hai! ;D

I miss you.

I'm sure you will have some rare chance to read this at one time or another, or maybe you won't read it for a while. (And you know who you are.)
I really miss you. I know it's not the end of the world, and we're for sure going to talk again. It's not some gloomy subject I'm trying to bring up.
I just wanted to let you know that I love you & and miss you than never before.
I can't wait to hear your voice again, Love.

-Your Cuddly Cub

dear diary,

brb running

SO HEY GUESS WHAT

i love wasting my time
i fucking love it

I'm tired and bored.

I'm extremely bored, and after being bored for sometime, it has in turn made me extremely tired.
I'm sitting here watching random TV shows both online and on TV if anything good is on.
Today was an amazing day, and I feel exhausted from it. I got to see my wonder little Goldfish. <3
She's so awesome. I'm currently writing something for her (And she got a glimpse of it.) Maybe I'll post it on here, or maybe I'll save it for some h00g gift. I dunno, we'll see...

I've contemplated doing this forsaken facebook photo challenge. It's just... eh. Really? Why not post all 30 at once? >8( So lazy to keep up with it for 30 days.

Anyway, I'mma go back to doodling while I watch some TV.
I already miss my Goldfish. Why can't things be like normal again? What I wouldn't do to be able to cuddle with her in my bed for just an hour... Honestly. I'd walk so many miles, kill a man, and cure cancer. I wouldn't even do that for a Klondike bar.
See, Goldy? (oh-hoh, double points, I think. Golden hair, and my little Goldfish! <33) I love you more than ice cream! Literally! :D Even if you don't comment on everything I post...

My birthday weekend!

Oh, Squee, what to write, what to write... This past weekend has been my birthday weekend, my birthday taking place on Saturday! Totally all about me, right? I've had countless things happen, and I've had some very close family come in. So it's time to write about all of it! If I don't finish, then I'll go to bed and finish tomorrow when I get home from school. After all, the main person reading this will be my beautiful little Angel. <3

Well, let's see. Friday was when it all started, I cleaned my room up, down and sideways. I waited because my brother was coming home that day, and he got in at about 10 PM. I waited up a long time for him, being completely estatic, he was bringing his 2 cats with him the whole time home. My squee, they were so cute! Whenever my brother arrived, we waited on the hello's, hi's, hugs, I miss you's, etc. I ran out in the rain and helped my brother run in with stuff, and we opened the Kitty's kennels and they slowly walked out and explored the whole house.

Now, I'm allergic to cats, mainly cats with a ton of dander, but these cats near never shed. It was perfect for me. They were so gosh darn cute! Especially Lemon. The cats got comfy and explored every little inch of our house, and the next day Lemon was more-so comfortable being around everyone. I talked to my brother and caught up, and he actually saw a little mark Miss Boss gave me that same Friday...

The cats names are Lemon and Percival. Percival is a year and a half old, and Lemon is just one year old. Lemon has an upper respiratory infection, which spread around and messed up her eye as well. Percival is a male, and Lemon is a female. Percival is definitely the Alpha of the group, but he was so timid with my cousin edward being around, making noise, and torturing the cats, that he just hid in my room the whole time. He loved my dark, cozy, cold room.

Anyway, Lemon was the cutest. She was a short haired white-and-gray furred kitty. We called her the purr-meister, because ALL SHE DID WAS PURR! IT WAS SO CUTE~! When I woke up on my birthday, she met me halfway in the hall and rubbed on my legs, and I felt the purr vibrations. She then love-clawed my legs (very carefully clawed them) wanting me to pick her up, and when I did, she laid and cuddled in my arms and chest like a baby, purring as she near fell asleep in my arms. She was so damn cute, I wanted to steal her from my brother. The only cat I've ever wanted to steal...

My birthday started off slow. I saw my amazing cookie cake which was the best cookie cake I ever saw, I couldn't have asked for a better one. I got dressed early with my brother, and we went out ot meet one of my dad's friends. After that, we had to go visit my mom, but first we got Starbucks. Do you know how amazing a Starbucks vinte white-chocolate light-iced Mocha is? It's like crack, I swear to squee. It was my first time ever having one (i'm not huge on coffee stuff.) but oh my squee, this was just... I want more! It's expesive, BUT I WANT MORE!

On the way to starbucks, my brother had a semi-serious talk with me. He told me "after we deal with family, because we're basically obligated to, we'll do whatever you want. It's your day, man. Whatever you want to do, we'll do it." Which meant a lot to me. It's silly, but my birthdays have never really been days about 'me' per-say. Hell, even on my birthday, my dad wandered around the house like an injured dying puppy seeking attention because of his 'broken heart' from his 'girlfriend' and nobody cared. My birthdays have been crappy, no real celebrations, no real presents. Hearing that from my brother made me realize just why I really look up to my brother and appreciate him being my brother. He's so awesome, and he's basically had my back my whole life. Whenever we both don't have much to look forward to, we intervene. That's exactly what he did. (Sadly, we didn't do anything, but mainly because I wanted that. Plus, it was too late to go out somewhere.)

Anyway, we drank the mocha's on the way to my mother's house, whom most of you should know she isn't exactly doing well. Neither of us have really come to terms with my mother's... situation, we'll say. We've been determined to figure her out, because I'm not entirely sure just how close it is to 'that time.' Generally, it was just a huge waste of time, we stayed there for 4 hours really just doing nothing. It was a gigantic waste of time, really. We could've done all that and more at our house over the phone. But my mother appreciated that, and I have pictures of her and I. That's what I care about. :) She's doing well, too, much better than the last I heard from her. :D

We came home and then we had to deal with Edward and my Aunt. My Aunt I could deal with, but Edward? He's my second cousin, adopted by my Aunt. She does not discipline this child, I've been Babysitting him for so long, teaching him how to do things. He tormented my brothers cats, and my brother got extremely pissed. He told my aunt in an argument "I just yelled and scolded Edward, he better not hit my cat like that again." (He basically slapped/poked Lemons eye really hard and she made some yelping noise.) And in her defense, she said "But he doesn't know any better." "So raise your damn kid, or so help me god I will pack my things and leave. Seriously. He's not allowed near my cats unless I'm watching him." And so we told him that. And he listened!

My Birthday was fun. My cousin ruined my damn cookie cake, and that's a tangent I don't want to go off on. He thought MY cookie cake was his, and basically demolished it. :\ Fantastic. I still got the final part that I wanted, and no one can have it. It's so mine, and it's totally hidden... that's sad of me to say.

Other than that, my day was filled with talking to my relatives as they wished me happy birthday and me watching TV as I fell asleep.

Then after that, Sunday came up. It was Edwards Birthday, and boy did I really enjoy teaching him and baby sitting him. :\ Not. I haven't even been a parent and I don't blame parents the way they act.

He wasl oud and noisy, banging his feed and stomping around the house at 8 in the fucking morning because he's hyper as shit and no one will teach the kid how to stay quiet. I got pissed when I woke up, and he still did it this morning... If he doe sit tuesday, I'm gonna be so raging.

We woke up, and it was easter. We had an early easter dinner, at 3:30, because my brother had to eat and leave as soon as possible. Before that, Edward opened his Easter gifts and basically went hunting for the easter eggs my brother hid around the house. After the easter dinner, he opened his gifts and had his cake. We stayed home nearly all day celebrating his birthday, and after my brother left, he was really into being my buddy. :\ He needs to go away, I need to breath!

He wanted me to teach him how to play video games on our PS3 and stuff. He asked me to turn on the PS3 and Toy Story 3, and I sat down trying to configure technology, whenever he crawled over and sat in my lap to watch. I didn't know it, but my aunt and grandma were watching the whole time, and basically took pictures. That's when I found out they were there, and I didn't like it one bit.

He still doesn't know how to use a controller. He just loves throwing Woody off of a moving Train and watching Woody die. I gave up hope teaching him. Seriously. It's a lost cause.

But Sunday was basically him constantly running into my room and invading my privacy, asking what everything was in my room, and stealing my cookie cake. Today was a rather boring day, school, dealing with Edward when he got home with Dinner, and then the rest was me laying down and talking to my wonderful, delightful, loving girlfriend. <3 I love her to squee, I swear.

That's really about it for my 'birthday adventures.' There's probably a bit more I haven't really mentioned that I SHOULD mention, but I can't think of them. There's even random conversations, I know that.

If I think of any funny conversation, I'll post them. :D Picturez!

 

It's Lemon sleeping! NAWESOCUTE

p.s., my Aunt said I would make a wonderful father, and a very caring dad.

I wonder who would appreciate that sort of comment. :) I can't stop saying it, and you know it! <3

It's late and I'm exhausted.

I've had one hell of a day today, and it was the best birthday I ever had. I couldn't have asked for anything more.

..Well, okay, I could have. There's a few things that didn't really happen on my birthday. I'll post about them tomorrow while you guess and figure out what they are. :)

But in all seriousness, I'll explain my birthday in huge detail tomorrow. It was awesome :D

Time for me to go pass out.

The love of my life.

I sit here as I write this after coming home from having the best day of my life this year, and definitely having one of the top 5 best days of my life. Pre-maturely celebrating my birthday (due to plans w/family) with my special significant other, Miss Boss. <3 The gift she gave me, as well as the one(s) she has in store to give me later, and the overall love and attention she's given me has made this the most unforgettable birthday celebration of my life, right next to the time she celebrated my birthday with me last year.

I can't ever repay you for the kindness you've given me over the years, and I'm not sure if I could ever give you the amount of love and attention you've given me, as well. The time we've spent together these past few years was the beginning of the 'new chapter' of my life, and it's one I hope continues and evolves into an even bigger chapter, with you forever being involved in later chapters and ultimately my book of life. I don't know what I've done to have been so blessed to have someone like you by my side. Hopefully it will stay this way for the rest of my life.

The lumpy throat you witnessed today is what I'm sitting here with again, trying to not cry from just sheer joy and happiness as I stare at the card on my desk. Once I'm over this excitement and joy, which will take months until it turns into a daily, eternal memory, I'll sit and figure out a way to beat you at your own game. I'll make your birthday better than the one I've given you last year, as well as the one you've given me this year. Then I'll look forward to what you'll do for me; we'll create our own little game. (As if we haven't yet.)

I love you, Babydoll, and I always will. I don't want you to ever forget that. No matter what happens, or what is said, or whatever comes between you and I that I will never leave your side, or never stop loving you. You're the inspiration in my life, you're the reason I wake up in the morning, you're the reason I consider myself so successful, you're the reason I haven't gone insane (yet), and you're the reason I want to keep on living. (Just imagine that sounding less suicidal.) I love you more than any metaphor could ever explain.

So here's to us hopefully spending the rest of our lives together and having tiny little goslings(lol) following us around like we saw today. (Still, you got points for that.) I just wish we could've celebrated today a little bit longer. Some time soon we will, though, right? I'll always be waiting, and you know that.

It's been a while.

It's been an extremely long while since I've made a post here. And I've got a lot of things to rant/talk about. I'm sure some people out there will bother to read this.

But oh geez. Where to start. Luckily for me, I'm off Friday! School-wise. It's our 'Easter break.' Really, since when was one extra day off considered a break? Whatever, I'll take it. I get to see someone very special to me that day, anyway. <3 (Hint: It's Miss Boss!) Gawe, she's so cute! She makes my knees wobble... (totally girly thing to say. i don't care. 8] ) But besides seeing that extremely cute & gorgeous person, on the way home I get to pick up a couple of things! So, I'm turning into a bitch boy. Since when wasn't I? Once Miss Boss and I started to become friends is when this all started. I wonder..
These errands are: To pick up my birthday cookie cake! :-D And, well, a birthday cake for my second cousin! He's turning 4, and he's coming down with my Aunt for celebrate his birthday, which is coincidentally right after mine. He's so going to get all the attention, but I'm okay with that. I won't be treated like the Baby in the family anymore, and all the attention will go off of me and onto him. I can do things in peace now when family comes to visit! The kid better not want anything important from me. I'm now a slave to Miss Boss, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but I'm not going about doing what he pleases. I take orders from someone else. Maybe I shouldn't admit that here...
On top of that, my Brother's coming to visit as well. I haven't seen him in over a year (properly). It's going to be awesome to finally see him, and he's even bringing his awesome poker set! Why? For the awesome vacation coming up in June/July. 8) I'm not sure if I said anything, but my best bud from Idaho is coming down to visit for a 'vacation' for a week. During that time, we're going to be playing a lot of poker with other friends I know, who also have friends, who... well, you get the idea. It's going to be some-what big. I think it's going to be awesome.
That's probably the only good thing about my brother coming to visit. He's probably going to act like an asshole anyway, treating me like I'm some inferior being and yell at me for something dumb I may have said. He'd make a good police officer. In fact, I'm pretty sure he's a walking Hitler clone. And I'm related to that...

That's going to be my weekend summed up. Celebrate my birthday with my amazing significant other and pick up my birthday cookie cake. The whole weekend after that will be whatever I see fit. Probably doing something productive. Whatever it is, I'll post about it (or post it) on here.
I do know that I may be going out with a few friends as they buy me a 'birthday dinner' or something (as they've said some days ago.) But who knows. I'm sure it'll be a fun experience.

Lately, however, there hasn't been much. I've been thinking a lot about Miss Boss and playing games with friends, occasionally going out and having some fun. I think I've got a video somewhere on the computer of me acting like the kool-aid man and running into a brick wall. Lulz worthy? yes. Hurt? You bet. >8(
Speaking of playing video games, I started playing this new one recently. League of Legends. Some-what a fun game, it's very boring after a while, it's almost like chess, in fact. A cautious, slow pre-game, an aggressive fast mid-game, only to end up into a slow, inevitable endgame. It's routine. Eventually there's only so much you can do in that game. It's a fun game, don't get me wrong, and it's FREE OMG FREE! (Hey, that's less money that goes towards Miss Boss. ... yeah. you heard me.) So for being absolutely free it is absolutely fun! But still. League of Legends is a game branched off of the idea of Defense of the Ancients, or DotA. For those of you who don't know what that is, it's basically an RTS game. Real-Time Strategy. Think, age of empires or starcraft. You control your town/city and your army, and you're looking over it like it's a map. One of those games, except in Legends, you only control one unit, your 'champion.' It derived from DotA, but it has some flaws. Some flaws that honestly make it... well, a horrible game I think. But it's more popular than DotA, and has a lot of things that DotA doesn't have that I love, so it's a some-what fair trade.

It's odd. Besides all that, I haven't had much inspiration for music. I had created a cool riff some time ago, and I had to force myself to branch off of it / continue it. I didn't enjoy it. I've honestly had the craving to do art more than anything. In fact, yesterday I picked out the paint and paint brushes for a friend of mine and is requiring (rather, wanting me to) paint a table he just built a special way. Now I have the feeling to paint my whole desk to something fun and unique. Hell, my whole room really needs a paint job, even the walls... I think I just found out what I'm going to do for productiveness.
But seriously. I'm having the urge to do more drawing (More-so painting) than I am Music. Contrary to what my mean girlfriend may say otherwise, I don't do nothing but play video games. (You know I'm just teasing you, Dear. <3)

That's really about it. I have something I want to post, I'll either post it later tonight or tomorrow for a certain-someone to read (eventually.) I think they'll enjoy it. ;] Besides that, it's been really gloomy lately and it's rubbed off on me.
I think I'll give it a rest, I'm sure people won't want to read a novel in one sitting.

Cheers.

p.s., i got new shoes. they are awesome. 8) Haircut & new clothes next.

I love getting sick. Not really.

The past week, I've had on and off days where I woke up with my throat being some-what sore and needle-ey. It sucked every time I woke up, and would proceed to chug all kinds of liquid, and it generally worked. This morning I woke up and felt okay, but when I got home all of a sudden my throat got destroyed by something. I seriously feel like I'm about to get strep throat, and this it doesn't feel amazing. Not to mention, I have small, sudden burst of headaches that last seconds long. Ugh. I can only imagine how Miss Boss is feeling, bless her heart. :(

So, now my weekend starts off to a crappy start. oh well, at least I can nerd out with an excuse, right?
I've got 3 huge papers due Monday, and two on Friday. One research paper for English on Monday, my "mid-term" for history on Friday, and my Music paper which is worth 25% of my grade. Let's get this on. 8) The only one I'm worried about is my English paper, the others? psh. But other than that, I need to sit down and get some applications going for schools 'n such. Totally procrastinating on that, when it's totally the wrong thing to do... But procrastination is what I do best. 8)

But it's late, i'm tired, and finding an excuse to stay awake. Maybe next time will be a rant on a certain video game. HM.

Still waitin' for them pictures...

At least I'm sure someone's waiting!
Today was a good day. It's friday, I took my midterm and pretty sure I did amazing on it. Maybe not A material, but definitely B material. It was a hard test, man, let me tell you. My teacher doesn't mess around.
After school, which again was easy, I came home and cleaned up my room for a bit. I talked to my awesome grandma, made some more plans for the super-awesome vacation, and thought of a super duper surprise for a certain someone special the next time I see them! ;3

Just thought I'd make a little update. I'm procrastinating my shower, which is weird, because I love taking showers. Plus, I'm sure someone out there loves reading these *cough*MISSBOSS*cough*

Maybe I should post those super awesome pictures of the gifts she made me. Hm. Oh well; this picture of us at Prom will be a fine placement holder! It's one of my favorites. I've been meaning to print it and frame it. <3

Study study study...

So, I don't have any pictures to show you from the gifts Miss Boss made for me. Maybe tomorrow, or the day after I'll post some...
Tonight's been an easy-going night, kind of. I just finished eatin' a meal, and I kept studying real hard for that history test tomorrow. Blah, I hope I do good. I have that bad feeling that I'm going to completely bomb it, but... what can you do besides study?

I made more super-awesome plans with my friends for our amazing vacation coming up in July. I sound like such a school girl, but I so can't wait!

Overall, today's been a really good day. I talked to my Sweetheart, I studied (At least I studied, right?), and am now currently enjoying a game or two with a friend before I shower and go to sleep (EARLY I might add...)

Also, do you like the new profile picture? It's buggy and won't save right, but it's something I drew a bit ago. One of the prom pictures of my sweet girlfriend and I! I suck at drawing, I know. It was my first drawing I attempted to do, and... I think I could've done better. It's a good thing I'm better with music than I am pictures, right?

It's the small things.

Sitting here getting frustrated with my math home online, getting 45 minutes of work marked as "incorrect" because -1.44 isn't "-1.45" and -7.33 isn't "-7.34". Dealing with math homework like that, getting frustrated with the study guide from History, and eventually getting pissed off from small comments via my parents (though god bless their souls.) can really made my day just "bleh" in general. It doesn't help that it was absurdly hot that day, and I'm like a polar bear; I don't handle the heat too well, especially since I haven't adapted.
This all took place yesterday, with nothing really working out for me when it comes to, well, anything. I eventually had to clean my room, which felt like a useless chore on top of a useless day. During the cleaning, I had to of course move things around, which I found the 1-year anniversary gift my sweet ol' Judy gave me. <3 I love it so much, and I constantly cherish it.
It's the small things like glancing at that gift that made the day turn around completely. I also had to clean our Prom picture of us together, the painting she painted for me (That's hung up. <3), and the amazing rose she made for me via papercrafting. It really brightened my day; and I feel like I'm in debt to you. I always aim to make her happy and please her. <3 I love you, my dear ol' Sugar Cookie! I mean... Miss Boss! You never heard the mush, you never saw it.
Maybe I'll post some pictures. Dare I post pictures, the pictures of the presents she made me!?

I promised her a special update for my blog, and so it begins like that. I just got off the phone with her, hoping that the gods that control the interstate don't take her soul as a sacrifice. (hey, they can be vicious out there, man, especially around here.) My day has been pretty okay, not getting much work from school (yay for only two classes today.) and talking to sweet ol' Miss Boss! :D

Tonight I'm going to actually try to be productive, but I give no guarantee. I will definitely make another update tonight before it gets too late. /ninja

<3 you, Judy!

D'is just for da boss! ...Again.

D'is just for da boss. Again. [:
I figured I could give a tiny update before I give my super-duper awesome looking one either way later today or some time tomorrow. Either way, I'm sure there's a certain someone who would appreciate it.
Right now it is early, too early for me to even keep my damned eyes open. I guess that's what you get for going to bed at 3 AM, expecting yourself to be able to stay up through a full day of school without going back on your sleeping schedule. It's not my fault I'm stubborn, though. I did my paper, which really sucks. I had so much confidence writing this, even though I panicked for a full week, and now once it's finished I can't help but question myself as to whether or not if this is what the teacher really wanted. I'll find out the hard day, won't I?

Anyway, just thought I'd rant about how tired and stupid I am. I'll give a more entertaining update some other time. :)

No sleep for... a while.

So I haven't updated this in a while, I've been having a bit of fun going out and doing some random things with my friends, like attempts at being the Kool-Aid man. Turns out you can't run through a brick wall. He makes it look easy.

It's really late right now, and I have to get ready to go... driving! Last night I didn't sleep at all. I went to bed really early at 4:30 AM, only to get awoken by my damned phone at 6:30 AM. I couldn't fall back asleep. That's okay, though. I got to get up and go give someone a surprise! It pretty much made my morning. My whole day has been pretty chill, too.

But yeah. 2 hours of sleep. It really isn't that fun. I'm craving sleep at this point. .___.;

I really haven't done anything that I should've been doing over break, or the things I wanted to. I've been doing random, spur-of-the-moment things, but a couple things have been productive. I still need to finish one quiz online and do research on my paper, which I plan to do Friday and get it out of the way. Blah, I'm so not looking forward to this paper. Especially since it's a research paper, for history! What the hell, man!

Other than that, the only huge news is... I planned one hell of a vacation. 8) My buddies, Tyler and Dugen are coming down from New York and Idaho (respectively.) during the 4th of July week. We plan on tearing the hell up out of St. Louis. We've got a bunch of stuff planned, including poker nights, theme parks, and random things to do in St. Louis. They'll also all probably get piss-ass drunk, and I'll be stuck being a designated driver. Lucky me... Oh well. I have a long time to wait. Thank god my Birthday's coming up really soon, and a ton of family's coming in. It's gonna make things go by slowly, but... surely!

An amazing start to an awesome break.

It's not everyday you wake up to an Angel wishing you a good morning. That pretty much made my whole day.

I woke up a bit ago and it's the start of my spring break, awesome! There's much I have planned, though I'm not sure how much of that is actually going to work out with friends. It's a good thing I've got a couple plans ready for myself and being productive on my alone, free time when I'm bored. Like... well, right now!
No one's home. I'm just eaten' mah food and trying to watch TV. Such a relaxing day. I often think about what Miss Boss is doing at the moment, but who knows. She could already be on her way to conquering the world, and I may not even know it.

This spring break is going to be awesome, I can feel it. I've got dozens of plans, and without having to worry about school and being able to sleep in, I'm going to have one hell of a time.

Time to go back to eatin' my food. It's gettin cold and looking at me wondering why I'm not eating it yet.

don't judge me. >8(

What a disaster.

I sat here contemplating if I should make some sort of joke about what's going on in Japan right now, playing along to act like Miss Boss did it (She still could if she wanted to.) but it's fairly serious.
That sucks what's going on in Japan. I'm speechless, I don't know what to say. Don't know what I'm talking about? Turn on CNN.

Oh well. I need to get going to class. Blah. I have a 2-hour break today, which is awesome! Classes being canceled is basically my cup of tea. Besides that, here comes a slow day of classes, more than likely :l

What an ugly, gloomy day!

So after dealing with a night of restlessness and dealing with a day full of the wrath of my boring and angry professors, I got to come home to something delightful: My computer getting a virus! Awesome! Turns out my computer got infected with a keylogger, for those of you who don't understand the nerd speak, it's basically someone who found out everything about my personal stuff. Found out my passwords for basically everything. That wasn't fun. I had to sit here for the past 2 hours trying to recover -everything- I had lost (random accounts on forums, gaming accounts, my email account, etc. :\) and trying to get rid of the damned virus. I'm fairly sure it's gone, and I certainly hope it doesn't come back.

Other than ranting like that, there's really nothing else I can say that has happened today. It's been a dull, stressful day due to trying to save my computer. Faaaantastic! I have to leave in a bit, too, to go run an errand. Maybe when I get back I'll work on Idea1. Idea1 is a song I started ages ago, and I only got about ~2 minutes into it. I stopped toying with the song because I ran out of good riffs that used nothing but Fifth's, and therefore basically paused. (I'm trying to write a whole song w/ fifth's, but obviously isn't working too well.) Looks like I'll have to bite the bullet, but after listening to something my brother sent to me, I got slightly inspired. We'll see how that goes. More ramble.

Or maybe I'll finally attempt to draw my own little version of Hugo for Miss Boss... Afterall, she would love for me to do something like that, I'm sure. Maybe I'll finally post some old pictures I drew for her & I. =P

D'is just for da boss!

I thought she was too crazy- too crazy to work technology. I was wrong- yup! Hugo was wrong.
My boss, Judy.. She got this blog now, see? She came up to me, she says to me she says "You better follow me on my blog, Hugo, or you aren't getting paid anymore. Besides, don't you wuv me?" She says, battin' her eyelashes...
It took me forever, but I figured it out! Her battin' those eyelashes, how can I say no!? I don't really need the money, it ends up going back to Big Boss anyway to help with her operations. Someones, Hugo thinks he has a chance...